I cannot express how much I hate the Resident Evil movies with an ardent passion.
Out of all my friends (and actually many people I know), I’m the only person that absolutely thinks the movies are terrible. After becoming a longtime fan of the video game series of RE, I was enthralled to hear they were making a movie out of it until it came out and I went to go see it. The first movie disappointed me to no end. There’s some cool parts in it, but overall I wanted my damn money back. What led me to my disappointment was that I got my hopes up about it. The game scared the hell out of me when I first played it, and I was expecting the same thing with the movie. The zombies weren’t even scary, they were actually played pretty poorly, and the only two monsters out of the whole thing were the zombies and the dogs. In the games, there was the mutant shark, the huge snake, the mutant plant, chimaras, lickers, giant spiders, the alligator, and I believe what was wasps. That's A LOT of infected creatures to fight against, and I think if some of those creatures were added, then it would be a lot cooler to watch (in my opinion).
Why I’m saying this all is because I happened to watch Resident Evil: Apocalypse last night. I swore after the first movie I didn’t even want to watch the follow-ups, but it happened to be on TV and there wasn’t anything else on or to do. Didn’t like that one either. -cringes- After seeing 28 Weeks Later, the zombies in that movie definitely put the zombies in the RE movies to shame. =/
Anyway, I finally picked out my classes for the Fall semester. Math 97 (which I’m hoping to actually re-take the placement test so I can get into Math 124), Political Science 101, and Music 125. I really, really wanted to take Italian 112 this coming semester, but unfortunately all my classes are going to be Tuesday/Thursday, and that Italian class is Monday/Wednesday only. I’m thinking about adding on Anthropology 101 just so I can get that class over with. If my timing on things is right, I only have another semester or two before I get my standard AA degree and then move onto the business degree. :D
Basically i'm about to miss out on a great kick-back tonight with a couple of friends (it's FRIDAY after all!), but it will be to my benefit. Tomorrow I have another interview at another hotel. It's not as fancy at the one I applied at, but it's much more closer to my house than the other one, plus I know a couple of my mom's friends that work there that are super cool people. We'll see how that goes. Right now i'm taking every good opportunity. The other place didn't call back yet (they said it would be a couple of weeks before they do), but i'm not so worried about that job anymore. This one can be just as good as well for getting my foot in the door to something great later on. I just don't want to go to the interview reeking of last night's alcohol on me. =P
Life has been so-so, but not necessarily horrible. I think a better word would be neutral. My classes are FUCKING AWESOME this semester, and i've literally been thinking about doing a minor in communications with my business major. I didn't think i'd be as interested in communications, but I think it's a topic that i've really began to like. My schedule for classes this semester is also really good; even though I have wake up early in the morning, it's seriously better than taking a night class. Night classes aren't all that bad in the long run, but I feel like in day classes you stay the entire session of the class to the very last minute, where comparing with night classes, some of the professors will let people out two hours early with a three hour class. Now that I remember my psychology 101 class I had on a FRIDAY NIGHT, i'm NEVER EVER doing that again!! Haha that was the worst!!
But yeah, I guess I don't have too much to say for this entry. Perhaps they'll be something interesting that will happen this weekend (like myself getting that job!! Ahhhh!!) Until then, take care lovelies!! =D
First and foremost, HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007 everyone! :] I haven't updated my LJ since 2006, so I hope everyone had a festive and great new year! Anyone with some particular interesting resolutions for 2007? There's a couple of mine that I want to achieve this year, and so far i'm doing a good job on keeping up with my resolution. One of them was to put a hinder on my nasty habit of procrastinating the priorities of things in my life, so i've been really forcing myself to get the important things finished. For new years, I went to the Dumont Sand Dunes in California. FUN AS HELL! I finally know how to ride and operate a quad bike! And it wasn't an automatic either! It was really tricky for me at first, but I started to get the hang of it. I'm a wuss for sticking in first gear the whole time, but I wanted to get the general feel of it. I also rode in my step-dad's sand car. Whoah, that was a rush! He popped a couple wheelies when we were going up this super steep sand dune they have over there, and my heart was literally in my throat! It was rad though! That vacation was something that I really needed. I haven't been out of my state in nearly three years, so just to get out and be in the fresh California air was quite good to do.
One thing I am completely ecstatic about is that next thursday I have an interview with the human resources of a very popular resort-hotel-casino out where I live. It's a position in the business center of the place, and it's a position dealing with the mail of the hotel and frieght specializing. I can't even begin to say how excited I am for this, because i'm finally (hopefully!) going to get my foot in the door with the business center of a hotel. Even though it's a position that's not exactly something that pertains to what I want to do, it's definitely on the right track to opening doors for me for other business center positions. At the same time i'm super nervous because this particular hotel is very professional in its nature. Even though its now a three star property, it started out as a five star and places like that look for people who offer beyond exceptional service to hotel guests. So yes, it's a little nerve wracking to me. I'm thinking it might not be as worse as I think, because where I worked at previously was a four star resort and that place was very difficult to get into. We'll see what happens, though i'm absolutely praying to get this job. I'll be one very happy woman if I do. :]
Other than that, things have been going pretty smoothly for the new year. Classes for the spring will be starting for me in another week, and this semester i'm only taking Italian 111 and Communications 101. That COM101 class is something i'm looking forward to doing, because I surely know that I need practice on speeches BIG TIME. Even though I have two classes this semester again, it's going to be a busy one because my resolution is to not procrastinate on the important things, and i'm planning to do the best I can on upcoming projects and research. I really want to excell in my classes; not just for the fact of getting a high grade, but actually learning something along the way too. This semester is going to be a fun one mainly because i've always wanted to learn how to speak Italian, and that my improvement on talking in public needs to be improved.
I'm super excited for the new character i'll be debuting over at WWS! It's one of the Sphinx/Kimoto pups! I'll be playing the pup character in a couple more weeks (I believe they are due the first week of February), so i'm psyched to be playing a brand new character at WWS! There's nothing wrong with Atraiyu; I still love her like always, but lately i've been running out of a tad bit of muse for her, and so with the coming of this new character, i'll be getting a short break from playing an adult character and also at the same time getting some inspiration and excitement back! ;]
For those of you who have read the past entries of this, or know about me, there is a guy that I truly love with all my heart and soul. It's genuine love, and I know so. Unfortunately, we don't live in the same city. Not even on the same coast for that matter.
He was supposed to visit me this month. Turns out he has to visit his family instead. Perfectly understandable. The thing is, however, I don't know how much more I can pull and tug with my emotions. It's going to be three years -- three years since we've seen eachother, and through these three years we've been crazy for each other. We've tried long distance. We've tried dating other people. Nothing seems to work. Nothing seems to goddamn work, and lately it has been getting to the best of me. I seriously want to pull my hair out. I'm certain i'm coming to that point where i'm just going to let it all go, and it's a point that I fear. I don't want to, but then again three years without seeing the one I love is excruciating on the heart (well, for me it is). I'm starting to feel I just can't take this anymore.
Music is my best therapy to any rifts I may have in life. I've been cranking up my iPod like mad with lyrics that are related to this situation, but they're not helping like they should. It's also the fact that i've had a rough week and a half. I'm so disappointed that he's not coming out here. It honestly got my hopes up completely, I was looking forward to it. I had great plans in my mind. It was going to be the best Christmas ever since 2004. But, that's not happening anymore. Now I don't truly know when we're ever going to see eachother again. There's just no time for me to go to him, and I want to ever so badly, but i've got things to take care of. I feel like i'm letting him down greatly whenever I say that I can't make it to him. He must feel horrible when I say that, but it's absolutely killing me with a rusty knife when I tell it to him.
This feels like i'm on a very high building, and i'm teetering over the edge. Should I jump and take a risk, or should I stay within the safety of where i'm at? Right now, I don't know. I don't doubt the love that I have for him, when I say I love him I really do love him, but the absence of his presence and not able to see those three simple words to him while I look in his eyes and mean it? It's absolutely killing.
You know what's the weird part about this all? I'm starting to go numb. I never thought it would be possible to actually feel an inner physical numbness with emotions, but I think what i'm feeling now has to be some sort of feeling linked to it. I'm becoming numb to a lot of things, and I really need to stop this somehow.
One way of losing a GREAT deal of respect from me is if you make plans, then decide to completely flake out on it and NOT call to tell. There is nothing more annoying and inconsiderate to me than that, and in my eyes it shows a very unreliable trait. It takes a great deal to make me angry about something, but if you want the easiest way to do so, then it's definitely doing that. Is it just me, or does anyone else have that friend, or group of friends, that decide to flake out the day of plans then NEVER call to say sorry or give a valid excuse? This issue really got to me this week and i'm not just brushing it off anymore, because with a certain group of people I know, this has to be the fourth or fifth time it's happened. I understand that people manage busy lives, but how fucking hard is it to pick the phone up for two minutes and call to say you not going to be able to make it? HOW HARD IS IT? From this day forward (actually from the day this all started), i'm just going to flat out forget the EXISTANCE of those who flake and not say a word. If it's going to be where someone makes plans and forgets about it like it wasn't important, they're going to get the same treatment from me. Don't think i'm serious? Fucking try me because i'm sick of getting my hopes up, no less cancelling other potential plans and then finding out the original plan was just forgotten.
This whole week i've just been in a really edgy and snappy mood. Perhaps it's because finals were this week, but also a series of other things (including what happened above). Overall i've just been very bitter and not nice at all. I don't know how long this is going to last; i've been pissed off about things since Monday, and it's almost Sunday. There was two nights that I actually felt good, but everything else was a no-go. Now would be a great time to go to a show, any show, and just take out my aggression in the music and even go for a short round in the pit. Unfortunately there's nothing coming up soon until late January. =/ And speaking of shows, SLAYER AND UNEARTH are coming in January, and i'm so afraid that the tickets will be sold out by the time I get them. I'm waiting for my best friend to come back in town and get hers, but I just might hurry up and get mine before they're all gone.
So yeah. Nothing much going on but irritation and anger over here.
Okay, so I just saw the line up for the Taste of Chaos 2007.
Er. I mean, I don't have a lot against the line-up for this (and might I add I missed the '06 tour), but I just think if Taste of Chaos is supposed to feature bands that are harder and more metal, then some of these bands shouldn't be on the line-up. I'm not too certain if i'm going to go to the 2007 tour, even though Saosin and The Used will be playing. But... 30 Seconds to Mars is co-headlining? Makes me a bit skeptical on going. =/
I can't wait though until Bleeding Through (!!!), Saosin, and Senses Fail comes on the 17th of next month. Yessss. :]]]]
This week has been filled with ups and downs. Mainly so because right now i'm not speaking to my grandfather. I feel bad to say this, especially about my grandfather, but there has been no excuse as to why he is acting like the biggest ass in the world to myself and my grandmother.
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Other than those frustrations, I actually have really good news as far as my job hunting goes. I found a pretty suitable job within another hotel that meets my customer service skills, and I believe that i'm definitely qualified for the job. It' a position that's within a spa company in the hotel, and all the basic skills that you need for it is a two year experince in the hotel/casino industry and obviously customer service skills that are exceptional. When I read that a position was available for a female attendant, I was really excited! Even though it's nothing that's in relation to what I want to do for my career yet, it's simply better than nothing. I was thinking about applying at Border's Bookstore today that's down the street from my house. I wouldn't mind working with stocking books or having a "nerdy" job as some friends like to put it. At one point this week I was actually considering getting involved with the student government/student job opportunities at my community college. Primarily I want to do something that consists of myself working on the computer, since I have used many office based programs in high school during the time I was in the DECA program. Other than that, i'm going to get to writing my resume this week and apply for that position. The very thought about it makes me excited to work there! :)
Another thing that has been in the back of my mind is buying a domain name for myself. The other day I was browsing over a website that I made a very long time ago (i'm surpised it's actually still up), and it made me think how I used to love making websites and learning new HTML and layout techniques. The thing is though, if I plan to make websites again, it will probably be for the sole purpose of my characters or for fansites. I don't think I would want to pay monthly for a domain name when I know I can just make websites for free on other servers. I know that if you go with the right domain name providers, it's very cheap, but if it's going to be a website where some of it isn't dedicated to myself, then I don't think it would be a good idea. I don't know yet, i'll have to see what happens and what decision I make for it. But I truly want to get back into website designing and learn DHTML and Java. Fun stuff right there. :)
Last night, I missed out on the Atreyu/Chiodos/Everytime I Die concert. To tell you the truth, I really didn't care. Yesterday I went to go see Borat again at the movies for a second time with one of my friends. That movie is like a slap in the face to America in some ways. When I saw it the first time, i'm surprised at all the racial bombs they dropped on the Jewish religion, but still I found the movie to be funny in some ways.
About the concert, however, as much as I did want to go to it (I love going to concerts, and that one will actually be the last one until another band that I like won't be around until spring 2007), Atreyu just isn't in my listening vicinity anymore. Their last masterpiece was undoubtedly "The Curse", though I do still love "Suicide Notes and Butterfly Kisses" to this day. I honestly didn't find anything great about "A Deathgrip On Yesterday". The only song I liked just a little bit was "Exes and Oh's", but that was about it. The rest of the CD just seemed... thrown together and slapped on the shelves. My best friend went to the concert last night, and it turns out she said that she didn't even stay for Atreyu because they were that bad now. Damn. I wish the old days of Atreyu were still here, when their music was more authentic and more "thought out" before they put a CD on the shelves.
I'm really, really starting to feel lackadasical about classes again. Tonight is English 231, and I haven't even started on the assignment that's supposed to be due tonight. Now that I don't have a job, that gives me all the freetime in the world to focus on my classwork, but lately I just don't have the drive to do it. I'm pretty sure it's that time of the fall semester where people do start getting lazy because the holidays are coming up and people just want to be done with the fall semester already, but that shouldn't be an excuse. I'm trying my best to pick back up in Philosophy, and I think it's working. On my papers, i've been getting back good comments from my professor. A good improving sign, then? Maybe.
I'm going to go get started on that assignment for tonight before I cave into procrastination. Oh, and one more thing. I think i'm pretty much in love with Tommy Lee now. I watched an interview of him on Jimmy Kimmel Live via YouTube. He's fabulous, and I don't care if he was partially made famous because of his sex tape. He's very talented, and very dreamy. -drool- :)
As of November 12th, I will officially be terminated from my job.
I had a feeling today was going to be the day that determines my future at my current workplace, and I can say that I am apathetic and just the slightest of frustrated. Whether or not I stayed wouldn't be a big deal to me, because if I did stay then that would mean getting paid for easy work and also catching up on studying. If they let me go, it would only be an opportunity to move onto bigger and better things. As much as I love my job, I guess it's time for me to move onto something else. One of my co-workers said a great analogy, and it was "Don't worry about losing this job. It's only the bus stop to where your real destination is." My jaw literally droppped, I think that is such an awesome analogy to use in this situation.
The reason why i'm frustrated is because I really, really like this job. I've had so much fun with it, encountered a number of experiences, and overall it's just a fun and great atmosphere in the good old outdoors. It did have its downsides, but it was downsides that either taught me a lesson or realized that I can put up with the worst there is. The more serious reason to my frustration though is that the decision was purely based upon favorism, whether they sweet talk us into saying that it was all based upon performance and availability. It wasn't. I know it, everyone else knows it, and they deny it. I won't get into extreme details about this, but one of the people who are staying should have been gone already since last year due to their effortless desire to get things done. In some ways I feel that i'm a little cheated over the whole thing. They got rid of way too many potential people, and all for the wrong reasons. One of the biggest faults of this year's staff was that the personal was mixed in with the business, and they didn't let the facts/evidence speak for themselves instead of judging people by who they are.
Oh well, what's happened has happened. All I can say is congrats to those who have made it, and good luck. I've had a blast working with all of you, you've taught me so much, and i'm definitely going to miss working there. <3
I'm going to have to take a mini break from roleplaying. With this termination from my job, and with both of my grandparents having problems with their arthiritis, and with having to go job hunting again, and with my best friend literally threatening to leave somewhere to a place where she's going to get hurt, a lot of this is starting to get the best of me and it's wearing me out. I'm a fighter, I try to be. When the worst comes around, I like to smile and think of things in a positive note. It works wonders, let me tell you, but all of this happening at the same time can take its toll, and I can't concentrate. To those of you who know me at Wild Wolf Society, Dreams of Reality, and Zero Gravity, i'm sorry that I have to extend my absence. I have to do this until I get everything cleared out and i'm back on the right track of things again. I have a feeling this is going to be a very rough road, but I think i'll make it through alright.
With a little persistence and hope, things should return to normal.<3
Life is interesting and funny in certain ways.
One moment everything could be running smooth, and you're ontop of the world.
The next minute, it all crashes down on you and shatters.
Sometimes I just wonder why this "stress" surfaces.
And sometimes I wonder why it's always me that ends up screwed over in the end.
Just my luck I guess, but I guess it's better than no luck at all, right?